Chutes and Ladders: Diary of a Bipolar Chick

The witch within me: Her name is Gretchen. She only comes out to play when I forget to take my medicine.  It's a rarity that she appears but she sits on my shoulder and screams in my ear whenever she does. She takes mania to a whole new level and I can't drown her out…

Empty Glass Jars.

I just wish the basement wasn't so dark.  Why does Mom even bother filling these jars up with peaches and green beans if we are just going to turn right around and empty them? I used to think it was a waste of her time and energy. Bring them back up she says. I hate…

Squares are not round.

I am reminded of Sisyphus, the Greek fable about a king who was very manipulative and deceitful.  When he died, his punishment was to roll a boulder up a hill only for it to roll down as it reached the top. Eternal disappointment and frustration. Lately, I have been feeling as though, I am not…

Depressed Debra

Anguish. - wanting to spend as much time as possible with family, but it makes you uncomfortable so you decide not to. - wanting to excel in all things that you know you are very capable of, but just choosing to distract yourself with the mundane. - having to just say "okay." To a question,…

Coping it up: Journals

When I am anxious, or depressed, I forget everything.  I am just constantly thinking about everything little that I forget what I ate, what day it is, and even who I interact with. So naturally, my therapist encourages me to journal. AND I HATE JOURNALING. I actually get worse when I see an empty page…

Ramblings: September 9th, 2019

It has been forever since I downloaded my brain onto the internet. So brace yourself! Winter meals that fill you up: I know, it is September, but I am so excited for things like - Venison stew, chicken enchiladas, cornbread bake (cornbread but with sloppy-joe mix and cheese in the middle), split pea soup, and…

Coping it up: Go Fluff Yourself!

This is going to be more of a depression post than an anxiety post. What I mean is, that most of my posts are little coping skills to deal with both afflictions, but this post may be better geared towards the depression side of things. I have very curly hair. If it was long it…

When all you can do is bow.

I haven't written in a long time. If I went and looked it would probably say a year or something..... It isn't because I haven't wanted to, or even because I ran out of things to write about. Trust me, if you don't want to go on a bit of an emotional roller coaster, then…

Reader’s Rants: I tried to write a review and ended up advocating for Romance Novels

Romance novels are the dirty little secret, and have been since their first circulation. The stigma that has been cast on it since the very beginning has morphed, however; into a completely different view altogether. There is a huge difference between Romance, and Erotica (Yes Mom, I know words.  No, I do not read this.…

Reader’s Rants: Hunting Prince Dracula by Kerri Maniscalco

Oh. My. Goodness.  Words are forming faster than my fingers can even type. It has been a very long time since I have even picked up a book, and to finally be able to write about one again is amazing; and it just so happens that the book I picked up was a thrill. A…